I ride on the back of my husband’s motorcycle, and this
thing I do is not motherly.
We fly away, just the two of us. I hold his waist and
smile at the breeze. The dirt under my
nails joins us for the ride, and the sweat, from my garden-work. But my love has come from his office, where
work was hard and cold on a computer screen.
He does not mind my earthiness.
The corn is coming up. Everything is green. God is kind to give us this season of
miracles, when dead seeds burst to life and we learn to hope again.
The heat and the itch from the garden work are blown
away.
There is a farmer on a four-wheeler, inspecting his
crops. When he looks at them, does he see business, and dollar signs? Or does
he see God’s touch, does he marvel at the sprouts? Does He pray for God’s kind
protection and rain like mercy? Does it
terrify him, or please him, to behold millions of fragile spouts in this great
expanse? How many mouths will be fed
from these beautiful acres?
A steep hill, and speed. I look away from the fields and
ahead, and my heart jumps. Steep up, steep down, speed and tilting, and oh, the
wind! The air, the speed, the life!
Slowly I take my hands off of his waist. I slide them to
my knees, casually, and then I let them fall back, and open. I spread my arms
and arch my back in the wind.
Consider the works of His hands, the nerve-endings on arms
that dance and sing on such a day as this. Consider the gift of the spring
breeze, a gift not asked for, or needed, or named, until it was given and
bodies received and responded with joy and gratitude. Who is this God, Creator of such a body and
such a day?
I notice a car coming, so I sit up, act normal, pretend I’m
not about to explode for the wonder around me.
This weekend, I am planning a garden, and a sleepover, and
he plans a funeral. We plant seeds.
Onward, we fly past homes where people tend flowers and
cows and children. We fly through green life
under the warm sun, yet even on this day I know sudden winter can come like a
car wreck, like cancer. Death comes even
in spring, even on this green day. How
many roadside turtles? How many loving and loved? How many mamas on motorcycles?
To my surprise, we are suddenly in town. I have no idea
how this happened, and I smile on my back seat.
It is good to follow the one who knows the way. It is good to be the one with her head in the
cornfields and the dirt and the sun, and to arrive safely, despite herself.
We slow, and stop briefly at a corner. The skin on my
upper arm is cool, and in a flash, I feel and remember my grandmother’s hug.
Cool, sagging flesh made a warm embrace. Was it better to give or receive such hugs? Do I appreciate them more now, in my memory,
then I did when they were given? And
will my arms be given days of cool sagging and warm embracing?
My love and I, we do not fear death. How can you fear
from the hands of Him who is Life? We
drive on, looking death in the face, and we shall win. We win, again and again, until the day that
we lose. But today, on this motorcycle, we win.
We do not fear death, and yet he slows down, way down, on the loose rock.
I am grateful.
There are children at home.
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Wonder, from my eyes, in my scene, on today’s stage.
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I am grateful.
There are children at home.
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Inspired by Notes from The Tilt-A-Whirl.
Wonder, from my eyes, in my scene, on today’s stage.
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